It’s easy to look at what’s going on in the world and become overwhelmed with emotions that are negative, or to feel hard-done-by, but our circumstances alone do not dictate our level of wellbeing. We have the gift of intention to do with as we please.
A week ago, a phenomenal lightning storm lit up the city. Its sporadic nature seemingly representative of the sudden diffusion of chaotic energy I’ve been internalising for the large part of this year.
Following a few months of enjoying the creative exchange between an audience and performer, I’ve had gigs cancelled yet again. As my initial disappointment settles, I’ve chosen to give thanks for the time that I’ve had to perform in the City of Music with others, however fleeting, and meditate on some wise words my late grandma used to sing around the house.
“Que sera, sera, whatever will be, will be, the future’s not ours to see, que sera, sera.”
~ Doris Day
When I think of my Lola’s singing, as adversity presents itself, my energy is directed towards feelings of gratitude and inner peace. For even in chaos, there is much to be thankful for and here is where my psychic energy will dwell.
I’ve recently celebrated another birthday. This time of year always invites self-reflection and as I look back on the past twelve months, there were many choices I’ve made that I’m content with because they’ve made me kinder, more knowledgeable, and they’ve helped others.
As I grow older, I’m less interested in materialism and more concerned with altruism and self-development. I have little control over much else but my own character and wellbeing, and this ultimately affects my relationships, and my creative output. My Lola taught me to be kind foremost and although it may seem like the world is being unkind I have a choice in how I respond to circumstance.
I choose to find meaning in this chaos and create something from it, through the written word, through music, through dance, or through images. I intend to capture chaos in some form and transform it into something fruitful. In the words of Mihalyi Csikszentmihalyi, “to find purpose in suffering one must interpret it as a possible challenge. What transforms the consequences of a traumatic event into a challenge that gives meaning to life is called a dissipative structure, or the ability to draw order from disorder.”
If you’re feeling at a loss, reach out to me. I will listen. I can also direct you to some great reading to help you find inner order. Be kind to yourself and to others.
If you haven’t yet had a chance to listen to my latest single ‘Someday’ please check it out here. Who knows when my next chance to perform my music live on stage will be.
Jennifer Trijo 